Affirmations

I've been confronted already! In the chapter on Week One, we are told to write out an example of an affirmation and then watch what comes up.

I chose: "I, Carin, am a prolific and inspired artist."

I wrote it ten times with ten corresponding "blurts" or put-downs that arise from within. Mine range from "You're lazy!" to "You have too much debt," to "You're a loser." Pretty harsh! (You should see the ones I got when I tried out the affirmation "I, Carin, deserve love." I'm glad I had the less confronting creative category to work with.)

So here's a list of the re-creations I came up with:

I, Carin, am a natural contribution.

My thoughts are gentle, peaceful and loving.

I am living my Divine purpose.*

I, Carin, celebrate and appreciate life.

God expresses through me in unlimited ways.

I can relax. All is cared for.

My Divine purpose is awakening to the love of God.

I create freely.

I, Carin, am a prefect creation of God.

* This one came up twice. I could have used it for more!

And these are variations of two I chose from the book:

I am a channel for God's creativity.

I am willing to let God create through me.

What I see possible is getting out of my own way and allowing the flow. It seems like a continuation of the practices I've been cultivating, in an on-going practice: dropping resistance, quieting the mind, acceptance, relaxing into the moment. The hardest part for me seems to be forgiveness. Let's see how some weeks of practicing these affirmations effects such self-negativity.

The trick is not making myself wrong for making myself wrong! Ha! It's like a paradox. But I see surrender, relaxing, allowing, noticing - as the key.

Stay tuned!